I never really cared much about my half birthday until a few years ago when my friend and I decided that we were internally 7 and 5 respectively and we turned the next age on our half birthdays. That said, I am “turning” 8 this year, specifically last Wednesday was my half birthday.
That being said, halfway is a great place to check in with my goals for 21, the things I thought of when I turned 21 that I wanted to do during the year. From this post, my goals were:
- being intentional about my choices
- establishing a habit of devotionals
- scheduling time to get things done
- routines for… health, beauty, photography, and blogging
How’s that for vague and ambiguous? I’ll start with the things that I’ve done. I’ve done very well with establishing a habit of devotions. While I don’t know I would claim to have a routine for blogging, I have been keeping up with it quite well. Meanwhile, photography has majorly stalled. There has been no movement on beauty routines and any movement made on health over winter break has come to a screeching halt upon moving to Los Angeles. I will claim to have been pretty good at scheduling over the fall semester, but that took a nose dive over the break.
As to “intentional choices”, the most ambiguous of them all, I’m really not sure how to respond to it. I made the choice to come out to LA to do this program, something I didn’t foresee last September at all. I spent a lot of time praying about it, and especially praying about where my life will go after moving. Will I stay here or go back to Chicago? As I’ve said multiple times through this transition, I have a lot of options and none of them suck (at least from my perspective).
But does praying over a decision make it “intentional”? I’m not sure. What about other choices I’ve made? Since September I’ve gone to industry events in Chicago and LA. I’ve made many knitted things and spent time with friends and family near and far. I’ve gone home for Thanksgiving, and then spent two and a half months living at home. I’ve started and finished many a television series. I’ve planned and plotted a few of my own TV shows (both in reality and in the hypothetical). What makes any of these things intentional?
The think that seems to be missing from this intention equation is what the intention should be leading toward. It’s hard to have intent without a goal set in that intention. So what was my goal in setting this intention last September? Honestly, I’m not sure there was one, and I’m not sure what I would add to it now. In intend to make the most out of the opportunities that have been given me, but that’s still not measurable.
Perhaps the best way to go about it is to say that instead of making my choices with “intention” whatever that means, I want to consult God when making be decisions. That is measurable and solid. With changing to that as a goal, I can say that I have done that so far this year, and I hope to continue doing it.
I don’t know what opportunities will be available to me in these next six months, but I know that whatever choices I make I want them to reflect God’s plan for me. He has a perfect plan for my life and He will tell me what to do next. I don’t know where it will lead, but I know He’s got this.
And who am I to mess with God’s plans? Nobody, that’s who.