I Want to Write…

Lately I keep trying to come up with topics to write about here, but stopping myself from even beginning. How can I write about this new phase of life when I so clearly don’t know the rules yet?

I want to write about my internships about how the executives and partners might know my name. About how actors I recognize will wander in while I’m assembling a chair in the bullpen and I see internet stars on my lunch break.

I want to write about riding a scooter in LA. About how I’ve learned to lane split while the long line of cars is waiting for the light to turn green. How I can park ANYWHERE and it only takes $3 to fill up my gas tank.

I want to write about going to swanky parties where fancy cocktails are a part of the gig and I can squint and see the back of Mel Gibson’s head. About getting a little bit tipsy and stopping for tacos at 1am on the way home.

I want to write about whirlwind trips to San Francisco. About Japantown kareokee and bad turkey burgers and not having to look up directions because I remember exactly where the bus lines lead. About waking up in my own bed to fancy french toast and surprising old youth group leaders with my presence.

I want to write about how buying a Kindle has probably tripled the amount of reading I’ve been doing. About how I am devouring a steady diet of YA books finished in single days.

I want to write about the experience of writing a NaNoWriMo novel amist all of this chaos.

But… (and there is always a but)

…what is the statute of limitations on writing about virtual strangers who are in the realm of well know? How do I write about the day to day lives of people who have an IMDb page? I don’t need or want to name names, but what if I write about someone and they then find it and don’t like what I say about them?

…I don’t know that three months of riding is enough experience to write about and even as I make plans to never get a car I can’t help but wonder how that will sustain though the years. Then I think about traffic and start an internal hate-rant.

…what is the policy on publishing things on the internet on famous people? I’m not sure. I don’t want to offend. I mean no harm.

…what is there to say about San Francisco that I haven’t already expressed? How do I convey both a trip with friends and a visit to see family in one sentiment when there were two different halves to it.

…this dependence is a shade embarrassing for a 22-year-old. Why am I up until 2am reading books meant for 13-year-olds?

…I’m not even sure I’m writing a NaNo novel anymore I’m so far behind.

This new life has new constrictions, a lot of which I haven’t quite figured out yet. I’m not sure where to draw the lines and what those lines are made up of. When I started blogging there was no fear of backlash, no worry of my words coming back to haunt me, but now… what if someone finds this and uses it against me? What defense do I have?

I guess the question becomes: How do I move forward with this blog and share my experiences without accidentally rubbing someone the wrong way?  Perhaps the question I should be asking is: Who do I value more, my blog readers who I want to be honest with or the people I meet in real life who judge me based on that vulnerability?

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Writing About Writing (week of August 19)

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They say if you want to be good at something you need to practice every day.  I started Writing About Writing as a way of keeping myself accountable for how much I was writing outside of my school work.  Everything counts.  Emails, journals, scripts, blogging, even excessive tweeting.
Over time this space has become a way of keeping track of weekly goals in other areas of my life as well as writing.  A statement of what I’ve done, and what I want to do.  A weekly record of my successes and failures, for better or for worse.

Monday: coverage
blog – food, no cook
Tuesday:journal (2)
blog – 2nd screen edit
Wednesday: journal (1)
Thursday: blog – right now
statement
Friday: nothing
Saturday: blog – this post
Sunday:

As I suspected, last week was full of random, but fun stuff done with my friend Allason and not much writing.  That was really okay though since I had kind of planned on it.  In other news, I did manage to actually read an old script that I want to re-work.  So that’s progress.

This week I want to further deconstruct the script I want to re-work.  I also want to get ready for the school year by planning some blog posts.  I feel like I’ve been saying that for weeks now.  I don’t know what’s stopping me or why I’m so hung up on it.

Writing About Writing (week of August 5)

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They say if you want to be good at something you need to practice every day.  I started Writing About Writing as a way of keeping myself accountable for how much I was writing outside of my school work.  Everything counts.  Emails, journals, scripts, blogging, even excessive tweeting.
Over time this space has become a way of keeping track of weekly goals in other areas of my life as well as writing.  A statement of what I’ve done, and what I want to do.  A weekly record of my successes and failures, for better or for worse.

Monday: nothing
Tuesday: journal (2)
research notes
Wednesday: blog – I did what I could
Thursday: blog – Fall TV
Friday: emails
Saturday: journal (3)
Sunday: sermon notes
blog – this post

What were my goals for last week?  Did I have any specifics?  I think I just wanted to get my life in order and spend time with kitty.  Well, if that was the case I think I failed on both counts.  While I set up a few things, I also messed some stuff up.  I missed a deadline and had to put the kitten down (whole story here).

In the meantime, my sister came to visit, so I spent most of the weekend days hanging with her.  Whenever we’re together all I can see is how hipster we seem.  We made quinoa burgers and she went with me to look at scooters.  I put down a deposit for a scooter you guys, I’m super pumped.

This week I’ll be pretty much on my own all week which I am pretty excited about.  I have two interviews, but besides that I am able to set my own schedule.  It’s going to include lots of friends, picking up a new-to-me scooter, and some writing time.

My only solid goal for this week is to write every day.  As to what I’d like to write, I want to get some blog posts scheduled up.  I’m working day-to-day lately, which is the blogging equivalent to eating hand to mouth.  I want to stop that.  I’d also like to pick a scripty project to work on and get started with an outline.

Writing About Writing (week of July 29)

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They say if you want to be good at something you need to practice every day.  I started Writing About Writing as a way of keeping myself accountable for how much I was writing outside of my school work.  Everything counts.  Emails, journals, scripts, blogging, even excessive tweeting.
Over time this space has become a way of keeping track of weekly goals in other areas of my life as well as writing.  A statement of what I’ve done, and what I want to do.  A weekly record of my successes and failures, for better or for worse.

Monday: journal (2)
school – pitch
blog – WAW
Tuesday:journal (2)
blog – writing your way up
blog – Will Be
Wednesday: school – pitch change
Thursday: nothing
Friday: nothing
Saturday: journal (3)
school – IP bible final edits
Sunday: journal (2)
blog – this post
blog – apartment tour

Last week I wanted to – and did – focus almost solely on pitching and finishing off the last week of school strong.  All told my class pitched our individual ideas six times to six different production/media/game companies.  It was really insightful and I came out of it with a few contacts to follow up on in finding internships and possibly jobs down the line.  We’ll see how it goes.

Since I’m finished with school this week I have a lot of unscheduled time on my hands, but also a lot of things planned.  For one thing, I’ve got a few interviews next week to jump start my internship searching process.  Meanwhile, I’m having people over this week to discuss starting a writer’s group with my class from the Spring.  I also want to step it up on the blogging front.  I have ideas for most of August, and want to start out strong, writing out as many of them as possible.

I’m also having a few visitors this week.  My friend Allason is coming for a few days, and my sister is coming next weekend.  Thankfully I spent most of this past weekend organizing my apartment so there will be space for people.

Writing About Writing (week of July 22)

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They say if you want to be good at something you need to practice every day.  I started Writing About Writing as a way of keeping myself accountable for how much I was writing outside of my school work.  Everything counts.  Emails, journals, scripts, blogging, even excessive tweeting.
Over time this space has become a way of keeping track of weekly goals in other areas of my life as well as writing.  A statement of what I’ve done, and what I want to do.  A weekly record of my successes and failures, for better or for worse.

Monday: journal (1)
Tuesday: school – game deck
Wednesday: journal (2)
school – game deck
blog – letters
Thursday: journal (1)
school – IP bible editing
Friday: journal (2)
Saturday: nothing
Sunday: journal (2)
blog – this post

Last week was mostly about school work and more school work.  The class had a few tours earlier in the week and were able to do a soft pitch of our show/game/whatever.  It was good to be able to give it a try as that will be our entire existence this week.  I’m happy with the amount of journaling I did this week, and I happily got slowly return to my quiet times.  Yay!

My goal for this week is to give specialized pitches to each of the companies we’re pitching to.  I want to be sure to focus on an aspect of my IP that falls in line with what the company typically works on.  I think this will help me go in with my best possible option.

Anything I get to do beyond that is a bonus.  I’m hoping that part of that bonus will include a few blog posts, but we’ll see how that goes.  It might be a bit of a sparse week for the blog, but next week I should be back in full force.  In fact, I have a very long idea list for next week that I’m excited to dive into.

Writing About Writing (week of July 15)

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They say if you want to be good at something you need to practice every day.  I started Writing About Writing as a way of keeping myself accountable for how much I was writing outside of my school work.  Everything counts.  Emails, journals, scripts, blogging, even excessive tweeting.
Over time this space has become a way of keeping track of weekly goals in other areas of my life as well as writing.  A statement of what I’ve done, and what I want to do.  A weekly record of my successes and failures, for better or for worse.

Monday: journal (2)
blog – WAW
school – treatment #2
Tuesday: journal (2)
blog – Bars and Tone
Wednesday: blog – not ready
school – IP bible edits
Thursday: journal (1)
Friday: nothing
Saturday: journal (1/2)
Sunday: journal (2)
blog – this post

Last week things are finally started to normalize, and then life got crazy again.  On Tuesday a cable guy came and connected my internet connection.  I was so excited I nearly cried.  Then I spent nearly all my free time working on my next school project with was due on Thursday instead of Friday… because on Friday we went to Comic Con!

And that’s the root of all the crazy from last week.  Comic Con moved up a deadline, took up my entire Friday (not that I mind), and then I accidentally left my phone charger in my friends hotel.  So I’ve been sans-phone for about two days now.  Awesome.

This week may be my first normal week since I got to LA.  And it probably wont even seem normal yet.  I still have boxes that need unpacking and I still don’t have a reliable way to get around town.

Goals?  This week I need to work on a game deck (basically a slide show) and I have no idea how to do that.  So getting through that with minimal trauma and panic would be ideal.  I’d also like to read some and just try to be as organized as possible.

Writing About Writing (week of July 7)

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They say if you want to be good at something you need to practice every day.  I started Writing About Writing as a way of keeping myself accountable for how much I was writing outside of my school work.  Everything counts.  Emails, journals, scripts, blogging, even excessive tweeting.
Over time this space has become a way of keeping track of weekly goals in other areas of my life as well as writing.  A statement of what I’ve done, and what I want to do.  A weekly record of my successes and failures, for better or for worse.

Monday: journal (1)
Tuesday: nothing but notes
Wednesday: journal (2)
school – ip bible edits
Thursday: journal (2)
school – treatment #1
Friday: nothing but notes
Saturday: nothing but notes
Sunday: journal (4)

Last week felt so long.  Yes, I know that it couldn’t have possibly been more than however many hours are always in a week, but I was scheduled so tightly that it was exhausting.  My biggest goal for last week was to journal and quiet time.  Journaling absolutely happened, yay!  Quiet times did not, but I already think I’m in a better place for them next week.  Other than that was school stuff and networking.  So much networking.

As tiring as last week was, I’m excited for this week.  My school schedule for the week is looking good and includes a day at Comic Con.  You guys, I’m going to comic con!  *does happy dance*

The not-so-great news is that I’m catching up with the things I had scheduled for the blog.  I don’t even have this whole week planned out, and I still don’t have internet access at my apartment (there’s a guy coming tomorrow).  That makes one pretty high priority for this week blogging.  And comic con.  And quiet time.  And sleep.  Yeah, sleep would be good.

Writing About Writing (week of July 1)

They say if you want to be good at something you need to practice every day.  I started Writing About Writing as a way of keeping myself accountable for how much I was writing outside of my school work.  Everything counts.  Emails, journals, scripts, blogging, even excessive tweeting.
Over time this space has become a way of keeping track of weekly goals in other areas of my life as well as writing.  A statement of what I’ve done, and what I want to do.  A weekly record of my successes and failures, for better or for worse.

Monday: nothing but notes
Tuesday:journal (2)
notes
Wednesday: notes
school – IP Bible
Thursday: school – IP Bible
Friday: notes
emails
Saturday: blog – adaptions
blog – twitter
Sunday: nothing but notes

Whoa, talk about a serious dip in jounaling last week.  Only one entry for the entire week!  What is this?  Probably anarchy.  Other than that colossal failure (along with the failure to do quiet times for most of this week), I’m pretty happy with the other writing I’ve done.  Notes aren’t that intense of writing, but they are important, especially in this class.  I do wish there was more of a chance to talk to my classmates about our projects, but I suppose I’ll have to create that time.

As I’m sure is expected my goal for this week is journaling and quiet time.  I’ll say five days this week as a goal, but I’m not so secretly hoping for all seven.  Other than that, I need to do a little bit more blogging this week because I don’t have ALL of the rest of the month planned.

Writing About Writing (week of June 10)

They say if you want to be good at something you need to practice every day.  I started Writing About Writing as a way of keeping myself accountable for how much I was writing outside of my school work.  Everything counts.  Emails, journals, scripts, blogging, even excessive tweeting.
Over time this space has become a way of keeping track of weekly goals in other areas of my life as well as writing.  A statement of what I’ve done, and what I want to do.  A weekly record of my successes and failures, for better or for worse.

Monday: journal (1)
blog – welcome
Tuesday:journal (3)
Wednesday: blog – Kitchen Sink
Thursday: journal (2)
Friday: blog – WAW intro
blog – 4th of July draft
Saturday: journal (2)
blog – new approach
blog – summaries
blog – this post
Sunday: journal ()

Last week I wanted to focus on blog content and planning my move to LA.  I would say that was at least half successful.  I definitely spent some time with my blog content this week, writing some full posts and some drafts for the next weeks and even a bit into next month.  I was also able to come up with a pretty solid editorial calendar for July that I think will be manageable whilst in classes.

I didn’t quite get as much put together as I had wanted for LA, but I did manage to scrape together a plan.  Mom and I are already well on the road and will be meeting with a building manager later today.  Step 1.  What happens from there will partly depend on how well that meeting goes.

This week will be focused on relocating to LA.  I’ve scheduled this week so I don’t have to worry about any last minute blogging, and I’ve even set some of next week so I can focus on moving.  That said, I also want to take really good notes on what is going on this week so I know what to do and who to call in the coming weeks.  Most notably that’s going to mean going over my notes every day to remember what’s going on.  Back to school we go.

Writing About Writing (week of May 20)

Monday: journal (2)
blog – WAW
blog – Would be Good At
Tuesday: journal (2)
Wednesday: journal (3)
Thursday: journal (1)
Friday: journal (1)
Saturday: nothing
Sunday: nothing

Honestly, I’m not sure I want to be disappointed over how little writing I got done this week when I was so busy DOING things.  I went to yoga, met up with friends and completed a motorcycle safety course.  My room is a mess–a sure sign of a busy schedule.  I love being busy!

This week is not looking quite as busy on the onset, but I want to fill up my editorial calendar for June this week and get a head start on some blog posts.  Part of me has sort of given up on my original spec.  I want to talk about it with people! I want my impromptu writers room!  Maybe when I’m back in LA?